What am i goin to do with this 6 week of holiday

Arghh.....time passes really fast. Just in a moment, it already march the 11th already. Haiz, sometime i really wonder why am i such a dissapoint at time and why that this got to happen to me and why and why and why. If not i should be really enjoying this big hoiliday ahead of me with my fully graduate diploma from the polytechnic and start looking for a career to get on with life, but well i will need to stay back in the polytechnic for another half a sem. Perhap this is buddha wanting to test on me the patient in me or want to tell me that thing that i want i have to earn it thru the hard way.
But anyway, as i jus mention above, time passes very fast and i gt to start planning what i want to do. First priority is to get myself a career to support my family and what kinda job am i goin to take upon..really got to start thinking abt it now. I ve a lot of vision of what i want to do. But will have to take a step at a time.
As for now, since i'm on a temporary on hoiliday brk for 6 week, what am i goin to do. Hiaz as usual friends been tellin me, guoxing arg guoxing why everytime i am so busy, like got to book me b4 hand if nt i gt no time for him/her.
Well this is what i say to them, it all depend, as for now i am rushing my FYP to try to complete 4book out within 6weeks which i set a target for myself n my partner and in hope to complete everything by next sem b4 the mid semester exam and on top of that i am organising and co-organinsing with my own rotaract club n whispering heart family service center for a kids fiesta 2006 in june. In order to get everything out and nicely plan for the 3 fulldays events, planning is the crucial moment n get thing done up got to start this mth. Roughly abt 3mth or more to get thing done like bookin of places of instrest, games, concert, incalculate the kids with all the values to them, gettin 40 -60 volunteers to get them train n participate in the 3days and oso incalculate the young volunteer with objective n value they need to learn, lucky for me as i ve been thru this shit b4 n ve gain lot of expereince with some repeated custosmer volunteer to this proj. So friend out there no worry that i dun ve time for u guys, jus give me a call or drop me a sms i'll reply to u guy and if time permit i'll make a point to meet up.
so in short my hoilday is being cover up by this two big proj on hand and u guys must be wondering especially my own gd buddies from secondary has been saying me do you think by doin all this kinda of social work will get you far and why am i still doin it though i noe that i won't get far even if i really intend to go into this area and the pay is nt high. seriously, i have also thought abt this for a long time, but why am i still goin it. it very hard for me to say. Perhap it the passion or my heart simply tell me jus go ahead with my insterest. Even my own FYP supervisor also told me that i am nt out into the engineering but esle whr. maybe that the reason he gave me the proj which is actually not releated to what i study n it was some sort of how to be a better person n how do we manage of life and to mix ourself with diff cultral background be it in working area or personal life. What i jus say above i maybe wrong, but this is how i feel. Perhap this is due to one person whom i ve alway admire since my days in ITE. She the one who been telling me to go with my heart and give it to my best and what ever setback I have in the pass is over now it the time to take chrg n go ahead with what my heart and feelin in me. My friend n me jus went to vist her during the chinese new yr period and we were really shock n a little upset. Due to her illness back few year ago and after her operation n camotheotapy she has gone dwn alot. but natheless she still as supportive to me n alway ard to give me her advise n listening ear to hear wat i ve to complain n tellin me lot of thing.


okok, think i wrote too much, and if i continue to write, think it goin to take days to complete my story. will continue anither day.